Wednesday, 20 May 2009

Death by Carbs

I need to lose 20 lbs. I need to cut out carbs for a few weeks, but fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck, I don't want to.

In fact, I would rather DIE than give up carbs. Well, okay, maybe I wouldn't rather DIE, thats a bit extreme, but I am really really REALLY not looking forward to this.

I've been thinking lately about my diet. I'm vegan, obviously, but I've always leaned in the direction of carbs, pretty much as far back as I can remember. Living in England and being vegan isn't that easy, I will admit, there are a lot of people that think vegans can eat fish. (Yes, I'm totally serious.) When I'm living in Austin, its a lot easier to get ahold of yummy vegan things like breakfast tacos, vegan burgers, mock chicken salads, etc...basically all of the shitty, fatty, crap vegan food that isn't any healthier than animal products, but it says "vegan" on it, and it tastes good, so that makes it ok. I don't like this attitude I have developed. I have become a vegan junk food junkie! Shit!

This has to stop.

It is so hard to find a happy medium between being a total fatass and enjoying food. I love to eat. I write about food and cook for a living, so what the fuck? How am I supposed to cut out all the things I love in the name of being thin? I guess it just needs to be done. I remember when I read "Skinny Bitch" for the first time, before going vegan. Things made so much sense, like eating fruit for breakfast - why am I not doing that? Because toast with a fuckton of butter just tastes so yummy in the morning. Because its easier to throw some vegan poptarts in the toaster while half-asleep than it is to cut up some fruit and put it in a bowl. But lets think about what is better in the long run. Fruit, duh.

I've got to stop being so impulsive. My mother-in-law recently told me that I'm impulsive. At that very moment, I had the sudden urge to punch her in the face. I think that might be proof that she's right. Shit, I hate that feeling.

Ok, so - lets get started. From this point, all suggestions, comments, and discussions are long as its all positive.